To rise, or not: A choice posed by a state standardized essay.
So I took a state test today. It was the usual basic: match, reading, writing sections to combine for an easy four hours of my early morning. Sure it was about a 45 minute drive from my house, and I’ve been low on gas and gas money, which made it seem more like a 2 hour drive; traffic wasn’t too bad though, so I guess I could round that down to an hour and a half. Either way, which means ‘back to the point I’ve yet to get to’, the last third of the test consisted of two essays. The first was the usual run of the mill “persuasive, opinion on a topic I spend little time thinking about, yet I know is very important, but have no way of articulating that” type essay. Very logical examples based kind of thing.
The second though was quite a surprise. It asked that I tell of one decision I had to make that completely altered the course of my life. One and only one. For a few seconds I sat and though, without writing. I could have written about several decisions. Deciding where I was to go to college and what major I was to focus on. My decision to not get into heavy drug use. Any of those things could have easily solved the puzzle that was my yet formless essay. But neither of those seemed sufficient enough. Even though each one of those things would have been justifiably (via real cause-and-effect examples), I just could help but to naturally feel like some wider picture would have been left out if I did write about either of those choices. What then? What could possibly overshadow such decisions in my 22 year-old life. Now, it’s kind of funny how I came to find the answer to the query. In the midst of contemplation, I yawned…and that was it! Yes, I was tired, but I was up and out.
Just that morning I made the biggest choice I could ever make, and it was a choice I had making everyday before that, except on days when I was too young to make that choice (or any other choice for that matter). I decided to get out of bed that morning, and for some reason that seemed like the most implicitly life-changing decision I can ever make in my life, but it quite possibly is the defining action, or non-action, that will set the course of the day, which eventually takes shape in decision-making situations that the world as a whole poses on you; whether you chose to stay bedridden or not.
If it was a good decision or not to write about such an overlooked event in life for the essay, I don’t know. My test grade will probably determine that. But being presented with the choice to write what I felt was the right thing to write about, I felt like I had no choice but to write about that.
